We've been back to my parent's place since Chinese New Year. It's been almost a month now, which means we're heading back to Taiwan in D-4 days. Again, I am feeling melancholy which is perfectly normal.
I guess I will never be good at saying goodbye... Well... who would?
I used to feel bitter, I still do sometimes, for the fact that my parents couldn't get to see my girl as often as their paternal grandparents. I imagine that when she grows bigger and bigger she will be reluctant to follow me home. Because, let's face it, she seldom be with my parents. So, I couldn't really blame her for not having that much love for them. But then again, I will have to remind myself, having loving grandparents is enough. I could not ask my children to love me the way I love them, the same theory applies for grandparents.
Instead of letting the negative feeling consumes me, I shall precious every moments I'm left with before this vacation ends. It's been a wonderful trip home, really. I'm back to my identity as a daughter to my parents, being pampered and all that. But I do feel guilty too, seeing my parents especially my mum get so busy each day just to get our stomach filled. I might be leaving again soon. But I leave knowing that we're so blessed with the love of our family back in Malaysia.
It's not goodbye. For family, it's see you again soon.
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